Sunday Morning AA

I went to my second AA meeting this morning. Its hard to tell if it helps or not. Right now I am simply going for the fellowship with other people since I don't feel this overwhelming urge to drink. I didn't talk, just listened. Was stifling the urge to openly cry. I do have to say Karen is right in the sense that you do hear snippets of your own life in the stories that other's tell. I'm thinking of trying another group since this one is both far away and pretty small. I don't feel a connection to it. Maybe that is me or maybe it is the group. Anyway many, many tears flowed on the ride home. I cannot get Elise out of my head. I hope that I can focus on school, take care of myself emotionally and physically, and get past this relationship or fix it. Ahh, but that is the problem, that I think it is salvageable. Elise has made her desires clear.