First Day of Classes

Holy %8@# Batman I made it through my first day of classes and I did it well. Not a tear until I was in my therapy session. I'm loading up on math this semester. I am taking 125 (Discrete Math & Set Theory). I dropped calculus so I don't repeat last years debacle of putting the time and attention into studying that I need to pass the placement test while not being able to attend to my classes. I felt that even if I could pass without falling behind I was just too unprepared and would ultimately not get the GPA that I want. Ahh it is humbling to accept one's limits. I am instead going to take Math 105 which is pre-calc. I wasn't able to register but checked the math department's requirements and I did score high enough on the test last spring so they should manually put me in the class. I'm pretty excited to re-take CS211 (Java) because I know the course and the professor Dan Fleck is a great teacher and person.

I still miss Elise desperately and hope that one day we can be at least friends if not reconciled and married. I need to give her some space and in a couple of weeks will see if she is open to meeting in person in a couple of months. The end of any relationship is not the fault of any one person but I have to take the lions share of the responsibility for this one. Before I can rebuild a relationship with her, or anyone for that matter I need to heal myself and continue to work on and develop the support systems that I need to stay healthy.

Lisi I just hope you sleep well tonight and that you are happy.